I began to be aware of all that had happened here. These two apparently dead men had come back from the cemetery, but how, in what manner, by what means? I don't understand it perfectly even now. There, in the small room, near to the cemetery, they were living their few remaining days. They did not want to go back again into life.
I shuddered. During these few minutes I seemed to have learned the meaning of life and of death. Now I myself felt that the life of the city was at a vast distance. I had a feeling that the professor was right. It was not worth while. I, too, felt tired, tired of life, like the professor, the feverish, clever, serious old man who came from the coffin and was sitting there in his grave clothes waiting for the final death.
They did not speak a word to each other. They were simply waiting.
I did not have power to move away from the crack in the wall through which I saw them.
And now there happened the awful thing that drove me away from our home, never to return.
It was about half-past one when someone tapped on the window. The professor took alarm and looked at Mr. Gardener a warning to take no notice. But the tapping grew louder. The professor got up and went to the window. He lifted the yellow curtain and looked out into the night. Quickly he returned and spoke to General Gardener, and then both went to the window and spoke with the person who had knocked. After a long conversation they lifted the man through the window.
On this terrible day nothing could happen that would surprise me.
I was benumbed. The man who was lifted through the window was clad in white linen to his feet. He was a Hebrew, a poor, thin, weak, pale Hebrew. He wore his white funeral dress. He shivered from cold, trembled, seemed almost unconscious. The professor gave him some wine. The Hebrew stammered:
"Terrible! Oh, horrible!"
I learned from his broken language that he had not been buried yet, like the professor. He had not yet known the smell of the earth.
He had come from his bier.
"I was laid out a corpse," he whimpered. "My God, they would have buried me by to-morrow!"The professor gave him wine again.
"I saw a light here," he went on. "I beg you will give me some clothes--some soup, if you please--and I am going back again."Then he said in German:
"Meine gute, theure Frau! Meine Kinder!" (My good wife, my children.)He began to weep. The professor's countenance changed to a devilish expression when he heard this lament. He despised the lamenting Hebrew.
"You are going back?" he thundered. "But you won't go back! Don't shame yourself!"The Hebrew gazed at him stupidly.
"I live in Rottenbiller Street," he stammered. "My name is Joseph Braun."He bit his nails in his nervous agitation. Tears filled his eyes.
"Ich muss zu meine Kinder," he said in German again. (I must go to my children.)"No!" exclaimed the professor. "You'll never go back!""But why?"
"I will not permit it!"
The Hebrew looked around. He felt that something was wrong here.
His startled manner seemed to ask: "Am I in a lunatic asylum?" He dropped his head and said to the professor simply:
"I am tired."
The professor pointed to the straw mattress.
"Go to sleep. We will speak further in the morning."Fever blazed in the professor's face. On the other straw mattress General Gardener now slept with his face to the wall.
The Hebrew staggered to the straw mattress, threw himself down, and wept. The weeping shook him terribly. The professor sat at the table and smiled.
Finally the Hebrew fell asleep. Hours passed in silence. I stood motionless looking at the professor, who gazed into the candlelight. There was not much left of it. Presently he sighed and blew it out. For a little while there was dark, and then I saw the dawn penetrating the yellow curtain at the window. The professor leaned back in his chair, stretched out his feet, and closed his eyes.
All at once the Hebrew got up silently and went to the window. He believed the professor was asleep. He opened the window carefully and started to creep out. The professor leaped from his chair, shouting:
"No!"
He caught the Hebrew by his shroud and held him back. There was a long knife in his hand. Without another word, the professor pierced the Hebrew through the heart.
He put the limp body on the straw mattress, then went out of the chamber toward the studio. In a few minutes he came back with father. Father was pale and did not speak. They covered the dead Hebrew with a rug, and then, one after the other, crept out through the window, lifted the corpse out, and carried it away. In a quarter of an hour they came back. They exchanged a few words, from which I learned that they had succeeded in putting the dead Hebrew back on his bier without having been observed.
They shut the window. The professor drank a glass of wine and again stretched out his legs on the chair.
"It is impossible to go back," he said. "It is not allowed."Father went away. I did not see him any more. I staggered up to my room, went to bed, and slept immediately. The next day I got up at ten o'clock. I left the city at noon.
Since that time, my dear sisters, you have not seen me. I don't know anything more. At this minute I say to myself that what Iknow, what I have set down here, is not true. Maybe it never happened, maybe I have dreamed it all. I am not clear in my mind.
I have a fever.
But I am not afraid of death. Here, on my hospital bed, I see the professor's feverish but calm and wise face. When he grasped the Hebrew by the throat he looked like a lover of Death, like one who has a secret relation with the passing of life, who advocates the claims of Death, and who punishes him who would cheat Death.
Now Death urges his claim upon me. I have no desire to cheat him--I am so tired, so very tired.
God be with you, my dear sisters.
