2018年02月15日 04:44 (星期四),Can再次回信,回信如下:
Hi Claire,
My favorite singer is Tarkan. He is like a super star in Turkey. He has fans from all over the world. I like his old songs. My favourite two songs ;
Your answer didn't make me feel uncomfortable. I know everyone doesn't ask these kinds of questions. I think it is the best way to get to know a person. When I ask this kind of questions, I want people to think. I want to thank you for your answers. What do you mean when you said you suffered too many people's sarcasm? You don't have to answer if it's something personal or you don't want to talk about it. I wouldn't want my questions to hurt someone.
My first answer is about the random question that I asked I would totally be friends with me, because I've heard others say I'm funny and I try to be nice, I'm a realist. I think it would be cool to see for a day in someone else's shoes, who I am.
I would like to find myself in World War I,II and American Revolutionary War. I would want to meet with Adolf Hitler, Mustafa Kemal Atatürk, Joseph Stalin and George Washington. I like history and I would want to meet with them in person. I would like to see their personalities, characteristics, real thoughts. What were they planning, thinking?? Adolf Hitler??? It's not that I like him. Hitler gambled the fates of millions on his appalling vision of genocide. He was wrong, insanely wrong about his nation's destiny, about the worth of his racial beliefs, about the morality of war and everything else he did. The story of his life was always interesting to me. That's why I would want to know such a character. I love the idea of history and the idea that we may have the opportunity to learn from our past mistakes. When I was little, history was just stories. As I got older, I realized history is the study of how we got here today. It’s a long journey that describes all the wars, great people, inventions, disasters that have brought us to this point in time.
Do you have any questions? You can ask me anything you want to know about me or talk.
回信中有两个链接是关于他最喜欢的两首歌,然而似乎我至今都没听过,因为那是油管上的,那时我还不会翻墙。现在有渠道了,我会去品味一下。
然后他给出了他自己对那两个问题的答案。他说她一定会成为他自己的朋友,因为身边的人对他的评价都很好,他也一直试图做一个友好的人。我不质疑这一点,对于一个很有偶像包袱和追求完美的人来说,他是不会允许自己在别人面前表现得言行失当的。不管我是真的摸透了他的性格还是情愿陷在花言巧语中,我都觉得这无伤大雅,因为彼此毕竟不会真的对对方的现实生活产生什么实质性影响,就当这一切都是美好的寄托也不错。
另外,他说他想回到一战、二战和美国独立战争时期,也是去亲自面见那么历史伟人如穆斯塔法?凯末尔·阿塔蒂尔克、斯大林和华盛顿,当然还有希特勒。因为他喜欢历史,他想亲自与他们对话,从历史中吸取教训,成就当下。还是个非常积极正面的小伙子呀。当时我就觉得我和他的回答有异曲同工之妙,起码我知道他也是个思想有深度的人,同时他也在寻找其他的与他思想契合的同伴。
他没有评价我的答案,但很显然我答案中透露出的悲怆让他有些不知所措,他好奇询问,但又怕刺激到我,所以很谨慎地表述着。其实我既然很坦然地告诉了他,我自然时不会介意再深入解释的,只是这个过程也是无趣的,毕竟我不是在向心理医生陈述病情,我讲述得再动情真切,我受过的苦也不是旁人能理解的,反而往往让我觉得我在演独角戏。似乎当旁人知道了我的悲惨遭遇而不耐心听我倾诉、不安慰我就是一件大罪过一样。我没这么觉得,我不需要被同情,不需要假惺惺,况且我也还行吧,尽量不要让痛苦的过去影响自己吧。
我不知道当他阅读了我的答案后的真实心理情况如何,是否对我产生一点悲悯之情,还是对我更感兴趣了,也许激发了他的保护欲呢?又或者觉得我太复杂了,当当网友就可以了,不能被我的负能量干扰。