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第62章

IT WAS ALMOST the last outbreak of passion of her life; at least, she never indulged in another that the world knew anything about.

But this one was long and terrible; she flung herself on the sofa and gave herself up to her grief She hardly knew what had happened;ostensibly she had only had a difference with her lover, as other girls had had before, and the thing was not only not a rupture, but she was under no obligation to regard it even as a menace.

Nevertheless, she felt a wound, even if he had not dealt it; it seemed to her that a mask had suddenly fallen from his face.He had wished to get away from her; he had been angry and cruel, and said strange things, with strange looks.She was smothered and stunned; she buried her head in the cushions, sobbing and talking to herself.But at last she raised herself, with the fear that either her father or Mrs.Penniman would come in; and then she sat there, staring before her, while the room grew darker.She said to herself that perhaps he would come back to tell her he had not meant what he said; and she listened for his ring at the door, trying to believe that this was probable.A long time passed, but Morris remained absent; the shadows gathered; the evening settled down on the meager elegance of the light, clear-colored room; the fire went out.When it had grown dark, Catherine went to the window and looked out; she stood there for half an hour, on the mere chance that he would come up the steps.At last she turned away, for she saw her father come in.He had seen her at the window looking out, and he stopped a moment at the bottom of the white steps, and gravely, with an air of exaggerated courtesy, lifted his hat to her.The gesture was so incongruous to the condition she was in, this stately tribute of respect to a poor girl despised and forsaken was so out of place, that the thing gave her a kind of horror, and she hurried away to her room.It seemed to her that she had given Morris up.

She had to show herself half an hour later, and she was sustained at table by the immensity of her desire that her father should not perceive that anything had happened.This was a great help to her afterward, and it served her (though never as much as she supposed)from the first.On this occasion Doctor Sloper was rather talkative.

He told a great many stories about a wonderful poodle that he had seen at the house of an old lady whom he visited professionally.

Catherine not only tried to appear to listen to the anecdotes of the poodle, but she endeavored to interest herself in them, so as not to think of her scene with Morris.That perhaps was an hallucination;he was mistaken, she was jealous; people didn't change like that from one day to another.Then she knew that she had had doubts before-strange suspicions, that were at once vague and acute- and that he had been different ever since her return from Europe: whereupon she tried again to listen to her father, who told a story so remarkably well.Afterward she went straight to her own room; it was beyond her strength to undertake to spend the evening with her aunt.All the evening, alone, she questioned herself.Her trouble was terrible;but was it a thing of her imagination, engendered by an extravagant sensibility, or did it represent a clear-cut reality, and had the worst that was possible actually come to pass? Mrs.Penniman, with a degree of tact that was as unusual as it was commendable, took the line of leaving her alone.The truth is, that her suspicions having been aroused, she indulged a desire, natural to a timid person, that the explosion should be localized.So long as the air still vibrated she kept out of the way.

She passed and repassed Catherine's door several times in the course of the evening, as if she expected to hear a plaintive moan behind it.

But the room remained perfectly still; and accordingly the last thing before retiring to her own couch, she applied for admittance.

Catherine was sitting up, and had a book that she pretended to be reading.She had no wish to go to bed, for she had no expectation of sleeping.After Mrs.Penniman had left her she sat up half the night, and she offered her visitor no inducement to remain.Her aunt came stealing in very gently, and approached her with great solemnity.

"I am afraid you are in trouble, my dear.Can I do anything to help you?""I am not in any trouble whatever, and do not need any help," said Catherine, fibbing roundly, and proving thereby that not only our faults, but our most involuntary misfortunes, tend to corrupt our morals.

"Has nothing happened to you?"

"Nothing whatever."

"Are you very sure, dear?"

"Perfectly sure."

"And can I really do nothing for you?"

"Nothing, Aunt, but kindly leave me alone," said Catherine.

Mrs.Penniman, though she had been afraid of too warm a welcome before, was now disappointed at so cold a one; and in relating afterward, as she did to many persons, and with considerable variations of detail, the history of the termination of her niece's engagement, she was usually careful to mention that the young lady, on a certain occasion, had "hustled" her out of the room.It was characteristic of Mrs.Penniman that she related this fact, not in the least out of malignity to Catherine, whom she very sufficiently pitied, but simply from a natural disposition to embellish any subject that she touched.

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