THE foregoing correspondence will sufficiently explain why no choice is left to me but to pass over Lady Verinder's death with the ****** announcement of the fact which ends my fifth chapter.
Keeping myself for the future strictly within the limits of my own personal experience, I have next to relate that a month elapsed from the time of my aunt's decease before Rachel Verinder and I met again.That meeting was the occasion of my spending a few days under the same roof with her.
In the course of my visit, something happened, relating to her marriage engagement with Mr.Godfrey Ablewhite, which is important enough to require special notice in these pages.When this last of many painful family circumstances has been disclosed, my task will be completed; for I shall then have told all that I know, as an actual (and most unwilling) witness of events.
My aunt's remains were removed from London, and were buried in the little cemetery attached to the church in her own park.I was invited to the funeral with the rest of the family.But it was impossible (with my religious views)to rouse myself in a few days only from the shock which this death had caused me.I was informed, moreover, that the rector of Frizinghall was to read the service.Having myself in past times seen this clerical castaway ****** one of the players at Lady Verinder's whisttable, I doubt, even if I had been fit to travel, whether I should have felt justified in attending the ceremony.
Lady Verinder's death left her daughter under the care of her brother-in-law, Mr.Ablewhite the elder.He was appointed guardian by the Will, until his niece married, or came of age.Under these circumstances, Mr.Godfrey informed his father, I suppose, of the new relation in which he stood towards Rachel.
At any rate, in ten days from my aunt's death, the secret of the marriage engagement was no secret at all within the circle of the family, and the grand question for Mr.Ablewhite senior--another confirmed castaway!--was how to make himself and his authority most agreeable to the wealthy young lady who was going to marry his son.
Rachel gave him some trouble at the outset, about the choice of a place in which she could be prevailed upon to reside.The house in Montagu Square was associated with the calamity of her mother's death.The house in Yorkshire was associated with the scandalous affair of the lost Moonstone.Her guardian's own residence at Frizinghall was open to neither of these objections.But Rachel's presence in it, after her recent bereavement, operated as a check on the gaieties of her cousins, the Miss Ablewhites--and she herself requested that her visit might be deferred to a more favourable opportunity.It ended in a proposal, emanating from old Mr.Ablewhite, to try a furnished house at Brighton.His wife, an invalid daughter, and Rachel were to inhabit it together, and were to expect him to join them later in the season.They would see no society but a few old friends, and they would have his son Godfrey, travelling backwards and forwards by the London train, always at their disposal.
I describe this aimless flitting about from one place of residence to another--this insatiate restlessness of body and appalling stagnation of soul--merely with the view to arriving at results.The event which (under Providence) proved to be the means of bringing Rachel Verinder and myself together again, was no other than the hiring of the house at Brighton.
My Aunt Ablewhite is a large, silent, fair-complexioned woman, with one noteworthy point in her character.From the hour of her birth she has never been known to do anything for herself.She has gone through life, accepting everybody's help, and adopting everybody's opinions.A more hopeless person, in a spiritual point of view, I have never met with--there is absolutely, in this perplexing case, no obstructive material to work upon.Aunt Ablewhite would listen to the Grand Lama of Thibet exactly as she listens to Me, and would reflect his views quite as readily as she reflects mine.She found the furnished house at Brighton by stopping at an hotel in London, composing herself on a sofa, and sending for her son.She discovered the necessary servants by break-fasting in bed one morning (still at the hotel), and giving her maid a holiday on condition that the girl `would begin enjoying herself by fetching Miss Clack.' I found her placidly fanning herself in her dressing-gown at eleven o'clock.`Drusilla, dear, I want some servants.
You are so clever--please get them for me.' I looked round the untidy room.
The church bells were going for a week-day service; they suggested a word of affectionate remonstrance on my part.`Oh, aunt!' I said sadly.`Is this worthy of a Christian Englishwoman? Is the passage from time to eternity to be made in this manner?' My aunt answered, `I'll put on my gown, Drusilla, if you will be kind enough to help me.' What was to be said after that? I have done wonders with murderesses--I have never advanced an inch with Aunt Ablewhite.`Where is the list,' I asked, `of the servants whom you require?' My aunt shook her head; she hadn't even energy enough to keep the list.`Rachel has got it, dear,' she said, `in the next room.' I went into the next room, and so saw Rachel again, for the first time since we had parted in Montagu Square.
She looked pitiably small and thin in her deep mourning.If I attached any serious importance to such a perishable trifle as personal appearance, I might be inclined to add that hers was one of those unfortunate complexions which always suffer when not relieved by a border of white next the skin.
But what are our complexions and our looks? Hindrances and pitfalls, dear girls, which beset us on our way to higher things! Greatly to my surprise, Rachel rose when I entered the room, and came forward to meet me with outstretched hand.
`I am glad to see you,' she said.`Drusilla, I have been in the habit of speaking very foolishly and very rudely to you, on former occasions.
