躺在床上却辗转反侧难以入睡，回想书上记载当初庄周梦蝶好像就是做了一个梦后，就没有下文了。
我上好闹钟，翻出安定片拿出一片，想一想掰了一半，最后又掰了一半吃了四分之一片，躺下来望着天花板，思绪还在胡思乱想，朦胧间仿佛听到有人呼唤自己，大力……
我心头一喜四下看了一眼，自己还是躺在床上，幻听吗？大力…的确有人叫我，感觉到对方是在呼唤自己，是呼唤我梦境里的名字。
我听出是个女人的声音，大力……
我开心的側耳辨认着，是老姐，没错是老姐，老姐来找我了，是老姐找我来了，我开心的从床上坐了起来……
哎，不对我怎么还在卧室里，大力，声音越加清晰，难道老姐可以来到我的空间吗？我打开衣柜，又检查床下，像个傻子样在一眼就能看清楚的卧室里翻找着。
我仔细辨认着声音的方向，心跳因为兴奋跳的很快，感觉脸都热了起来。
我尝试着让自己冷静下来，老姐你在哪我小声的向四周问道，声音继续呼唤着，却没有回答我。
那么是不是声音是单向传播，我能听见老姐的声音，她听不见我在这里的声音，我按捺着兴奋和不安，重新躺回床上，手心和额头都是汗。
闭上眼睛时候，感觉声音又清晰了一些，我懂了。
大力…老姐我在，我在心里回应道，声音又大了一些，大力……老姐我在，大力……老姐我在，几乎是在心里呐喊出这一句的同时，我睁开了眼睛！
没错我还在床上……
但不是我卧室的床，老姐一脸关切的望着我，开心的一把抓住老姐的手，姐，眼睛一红。
感受到老姐手上的温度，自己真的还是回来了。我又悄悄的捏了自己的大腿一下有感觉（话说梦里边是没有感觉吧）。
你回来找我的吧，强压着欣喜说道。老姐莞尔的向门旁边指了一下，一个蒙着面的人站在门口，那身衣服……
不是吧，是那个疯尸病，我手往身边一划拉找到了自己的打狗棍，一个纵跃……又被老姐拉了回来，大力是他背你找到我们的。
啊？他是个疯尸病我急切的说，老姐用眼神示意我一下，他是咱家那条街上的，一家人都死光了，他怕被扑杀就躲在地窖了，后来没想到活了下来，只是……老姐的意思就是这个样子了，我知道的。
先不管他，不管怎么说……我真的又回来了！！！
看看周围这是是一间木屋，不是城里房屋建筑的风格，像是一间农舍。
老姐端了一个碗过来，里面又煮的稀饭，大力你一定是饿了吧，从城外回来到现在都没吃过东西。
接过来碗第一口粥从喉咙滑下，温暖又带着米的香味，这梦里可以品尝到食物的味道？好像以前没有印象在梦里吃过东西，更不知道梦里食物的味道。
又吃了几口，姐还有条灰色的狗还在吗？我问到，老姐扑哧一声笑了为了救那只狗才打他是吧，他是病患免疫者了，不攻击人的，后来他认出你是咱家的人，本来想和你打个招呼，没想到你晕了过去。
他怕你留在原地有危险，于是背着你追上我们，有他作护身符你就一路顺利的和我们在城门口汇合。
他背我过来的我打了个寒战，他那一身的恶臭和满脸的脓疮，还有趴在地面上一直吐着虫卵，不会把我感染吧。
那条狗还在，远远的跟着你们也过来了。那老姐你喂它点东西吧，我恳求道。
大力，现在人都吃不饱，饿死了多少人？这只狗好像不太对劲，我觉得它像一条狼。
狼，我诧异了一下，是吗？不过的确奇怪这个时候，不可能有狗的不然早被逮住吃掉了。可是狼怎么能进城呢？
哦我们现在在哪？已经出城了吗？老妈呢？你回来前不是已经传书告诉妈城外的伏军已经撤走了吗老姐差异的反问。
……这段记忆我没有啊，我们现在西郊的郑家村，你在信里说韩将军他们在黄土岗镇是吗？
这个记忆我也没有啊？这可咋整，我一下有点慌，身体和我的记忆关联不受我控制啊，我使劲的回忆着，但毛都没有一片空白的。
我带着一家人现在去寻韩将军，上哪儿找去啊？我只是在记忆里知道我和他见过，但只是心里知道韩将军是认识的，意识里没有他脸和样子啊？
妈呢？妈在写信，老姐回答。哎？韩将军能收到我们的信鸽吗？我这时候想我要是有手机就好了，……对了，没网也不行。
老姐敲了一下我的头，信鸽只能飞回到他出发的地方，那老妈给谁在写信，老姐看了门口一眼使了个眼神，我看了那个疯尸病一眼，身体还是感觉很膈应。
等到我把那碗粥吃光，身体感觉也有了力气，抓过自己的棍子向门口走去，老姐开心的拍了拍我的背，先去看看妈，嗯我答应着走了出去。
老姐，我转过头用手指偷偷指了指门口的疯尸病，挤了挤眼睛那意思赶紧给他弄走吧，想起他吐的满地元宵一样虫卵真是……
老姐摇了摇头瞪了我一眼，不管怎样是他背你回来的，王家人有恩必还，他不吃粮食，你去给他弄点水，再去弄点活物来。
啊……活物，我去哪给他弄活物去，这时候人都没饭吃，哪有活物？
老姐用口型对我说“老鼠”……
我眼睛都要瞪出来了，想着他那满脸脓疮下的嘴，张开吞下一只老鼠，老鼠的尾巴还在他嘴边抖动，他吸溜一下吃进肚里，呕，我刚吃进去的粥差点没吐出来。
你等着，老姐说完走了出去，不一会拿了一把玉米和一个筛子，你知道怎么做了。
我相信我此刻的脸已经成了一个囧字，设陷阱抓老鼠，老姐恶趣味的点了点头，一扬手把东西递了给我。
出了门来到正屋，门口陈婶正在研磨玉米，玉米面做成粥加点地瓜和青菜也很不错。我忽然想起在梦外晚上和女儿在楼下吃的地三鲜和锅包肉。
Was tossing and turning in bed unable to sleep， to recall the book at the beginning that sounds like the chuang tzu's dream had a dream， there is no below.
I alarm， valium turned up and took out a piece of， think break in half， then break of half ate a quarter slice， lie down and looked at the ceiling， the thoughts still friends， dimly heard someone calling himself， vigorously...
Looked at my heart a happy around， I was lying in bed， hearing voices?
I hear a woman's voice， strong...
I'm happy give ear recognition， kiddo， that's right， kiddo， kiddo to seek me， kiddo is looking for me， I happy sat up from the bed...
Right ah， how do I in the bedroom， also vigorously， sound more clear， kiddo can come to my space?
I carefully to identify the direction of the sound， the heart jump quickly with excitement， feel hot face up.
I try to calm yourself down， kiddo where are you， I whispered to asked， voice continued to call， but did not answer me.
Does it sound is a one-way transmission， I can hear the sound of a kiddo， she couldn't hear the voice of my here， I resisted the excitement and anxiety， lay back in bed， palms and forehead sweating all over.
Close your eyes， feeling and clear some voice， I understand.
Vigorously...
Yes I'm in bed...
But it is not I the bed of the bedroom， kiddo a face of concern of looked at me， happy at the hand of the kiddo， elder sister， eyes red.
Feel the temperature of kiddo hand， oneself really came back.
You come back to me， holding joy said.
Is not right， is that crazy body disease， I found your hands to pull to the side dozen dog stick， a ZongYue...
Ah?
No matter he first， anyway...
Look around this is is a wooden house， not the style of the buildings in town， like a farmhouse.
Kiddo set a bowl， and cook porridge inside， you must be hungry， come back from outside haven't eaten anything up to now.
Took the bowl first bite porridge from sliding down the throat， warm and with rice fragrance， this dream can taste the food taste?
And ate a few bites， sister and grey dog still there?
He's afraid you stay put in danger， so carrying， catch up with us， you have him as you did get amulets and we meet at the gate of the city.
He come back I dozen chills， his a stench and face abscess， and prone on the ground has been vomit a eggs， don't take me infection.
The dog is still there， far with you also.
Vigorously， now people do not have enough to eat， how many people starved to death?
Wolf， I wondered， is it?
Oh， we are now?
...
I don't have the memory?
I took my family to find Korean general now， where to find?
Mother?
Kiddo knocked at my head， homing pigeons can fly to the place he set out， the mother who give in writing， kiddo made a look at the door of her eye， I took a look that crazy body disease， the body still feel very GeYing.
When I put the bowl of porridge， eat， the body feeling also have the strength， grabbed his stick to the door， kiddo happy patted me on the back， to see mom， first well I promise to walk out.
Kiddo， I turned to secretly with finger pointed to the door of the crazy body disease， crowded a crowded eyes that means to get go， for he remembered his spitting everywhere yuanxiao eggs is really...
Kiddo shook his head， stared my one eye， no matter how is he back you come back， member kind will also， and he did not eat food， you go get some water for him， then get some living creature.
Ah...
Kiddo in mouth said to me “mouse“...
My eyes will pop out， thinking of his mouth， under a full face of abscess with open swallowed a mouse， the mouse's tail was in his mouth jitter， he XiLiu eat into his stomach， oh， I just eat into porridge almost didn't spit it out.
Waiting for you， kiddo said went out， and soon took a handful of corn and a sieve， do you know how to do.
I believe that I now face has become a wet weekend， set traps to catch rats， kiddo bad taste nodded， a Yang hand put the things and handed it to me.
Out of the door came amidst the great aunt Chen is grinding corn， corn flour to make porridge with sweet potato and vegetables are also very good.
