那灰狗身子里，原来已经被刚刚用风目弓，提出来的化鸢女意识体控制住了，怪不得老实的趴在那里。
我忽然意识到，被这个普剑舟控制的所有化鸢女，其实都是被他们用毒炼化的苦命女人，从小被用化鸢丹毒在体内养了蛊，到最后身子完全被侵占变成植物生命体。
在外面我是一名医生，就职仪式时候曾经宣誓，尽一切办法救治病人，是我们的使命，我也许不是什么有管理能力或是处事能力的人才，因为那不是我愿意钻研的领域。
但我愿意尽我所能的，为我的患者解除病痛，看着他们在我的救治下，重新获得健康，甚至得以再次拥有生存的机会，我无比的满足和骄傲。
我愿意用我的医术来帮助他人，但此刻我却迷茫了，我曾经和肿瘤科的廖主任，在酒桌上探讨过安乐死，他当时很凝重的看着我，一字一句说，有的时候在病痛中，患者每一次呼吸，都会是一次生不如死的折磨，在这种情况下，患者是希望选择一种体面的方式，离开这幅躯体，寻求解脱。
我当时没有听他讲下去，而是粗暴的打断他，廖主任，我们都有利用医术，挽救患者的责任，我理解你科室患者的特殊性，但人生不易，如果每个人因为困难或是苦难，就选择轻生的话，那么他们的家庭责任和人生的意义又在哪里。
廖主任没在说下去，自己倒满了一杯酒仰头灌到肚里。
我此刻好像理解了他的心情，这些化鸢女其实，早就不在是拥有主观意识的人了，她们的身体已经被蛊侵蚀，她们的意识困在这幅植物纤维般的躯壳里，还要靠毒药不断的麻痹和被奴役下去。
我使用风目弓杀死她们的躯壳，让她们的意识体重新获得生命，并暂时落脚在我的梦境空间，这也许是失去了身体，但也是获得了一个健康或是叫另外一种健康的生命吧。
大人，白面男的意识打断了我的思考，我不知道你的姐姐是什么情况，但化鸢丹绝不会有这么容易就解决的，我想她也许是用了什么激发潜能的药物，暂时逼住了化鸢丹的毒性，但一旦这个药物药力一过，那她就……
我一下愣住了，怪不得老姐不跟我说她是怎么回事，老妈也没有因为她的状态而显得轻松！
我猛地回头盯着老姐，见她脸色此刻红的吓人，老妈正皱着眉头帮她擦拭额上的汗水。
我顾不上白面男，跑到老姐近前，猛地去抓她中毒的那只手臂，肚子忽的一痛，身体倒飞了出去，扑通一下摔在地上，老妈收腿难过的看了我一眼，大力你不要靠近我们！
你听妈说，我和你姐用了昙花散，从现在开始我们还有三日的性命，你知道现在咱家已经没有粮食了，路上还有伏击的刺客，这三日我和你姐会帮你们扫清路上的埋伏和障碍，如果幸运的话看看能不能帮你们再找些口粮。
啥：妈，你疯了吗？我一下想起了出城前，老妈把我和老姐叫道内屋，拿出一盒匣子，从里面拿出一个蓝色云纹的瓷瓶，在里面倒出三粒白色的药丸。
她交给我和老姐一人一颗。
这是昙花散（为啥叫散？散不是粉状的吗？这个明明是颗粒的啊）老姐脸色一下变了，她好像知道这药的来历，一伸手老姐抢过我手里的那粒药，随便的放在袖内，妈，有我在用不着大力吃这个，老姐一边说一边转身出了屋子。
我当时一再追问老妈和老姐这是啥药，管啥用的，老妈和老姐好像商量好了似的谁都没有告诉我，也没在提这个事情。
这一段记忆是怎么想起来的，我还没搞清楚，腿一软自己跪在了地上……我发现自己竟失去了身体的控制权，一时没反应过来，自己已经理所当然的在使用身体了，而且从遇到小灰狗自它眼睛里退出后，好像就没有再失去身体的控制权了。
甚至都没有过不协调的感觉，而此时我却又成为了观众，我听见自己嘶吼着，双手拄着地，看着老妈和老姐，此刻大力已经崩溃了！
我看到地上不断滴落的泪水或是鼻涕，我明白了，老妈和老姐要牺牲自己为我和熊孩子获取突围和活下去的机会。
她们怎么可以这么做，一家人就算再危险再困难也要在一起啊！就算死一家人死在一起也不怕啊！她们说都不和我说一声就要牺牲自己！我虽然失去了身体的控制权，但此刻意识里已经和大力一样要崩溃了！
大力，老姐柔声的叫着我，姐中了毒没机会再陪你了，我和妈之前商量好了，虽然当时还不知道那个疯尸病的男人，就是接应我们的人，但现在看，事情怕是不是当初安排的那样了。
我们现在不去京城了，你不是跟妈说给大舅托梦了吗？我也不知道怎么回事，但妈说咱们家大力不是凡夫俗子，我们就当你说的是真了。
我和妈在这三日帮你清路，我们现在不用食物和睡眠了……姐！我听到大力那已经变音的这声哀嚎！我此刻也明白什么是撕心裂肺，痛彻心扉！
小七！我在意识里大吼着呼叫小七，因为身体已经不受控制，我也不能去熊孩子那边，不知道现在和小七能不能联系的上。
大力的意识怎么会突然这时候他回来？
不是之前困在了第三层梦境空间的梦魇当中了吗？是因为我从梦魇中退出，所以他的意识就回来了吗？
怎么非赶到这时候啊，马上就要找到粮食了，而且老妈和老姐出了这么大的事儿，他回来也帮不上忙啊！
奶奶，我听见熊孩子的声音，小七并没有回应我在意识里的呼叫，而此时我发现我无法用意识去和熊孩子沟通了……
熊孩子抱着小灰狗走到我跟前，她深深的看了我一眼，接着转头对老妈说。
奶奶，我知道哪里有粮食，但我们要先去救人，你和琳姨不会有事的，而且我们并不孤单，我们已经有一支队伍了。
The greyhound in body， the original has been just bow， the wind of the female consciousness the kite body control， it's no wonder that honest lie there.
I suddenly realized that， under the control of the PuJianZhou all female the kite， are they using poison refining the desperate woman， I was with the kite erysipelas raises method in the body， at the end of the body is fully occupied into plant life.
I am a doctor in the outside， the inauguration time once the oath， by all means treating patients， it is our mission， and I may not have management ability or competence of the talents， because that's not what I want to study in the field.
But I am willing to do what I can for my patients relieve pain， look at them under my care， to regain health， even once again to have the chance of survival， I could never meet and pride.
I would like to use my skill to help others， but at the moment I lost， I once and oncology department director liao， discussed on the wine table euthanasia， he was a very dignified and looked at me， every word said， sometimes in pain， patients with each breath， will be a secondary dead， in this case， the patient is that I wish to choose a respectable way， leaving the body， to seek relief.
I didn't listen to him， but rough interrupted him， director of the manifold， we all have our use of medicine， to save the patient's responsibility， I understand your department to the particularity of patients， but life is not easy， if everyone because of difficulty or hardship， the choice of suicide， so their family responsibilities and where is the meaning of life.
Liao said not in director， because he himself is full of a glass wine upward into the belly.
I seemed to understand his mood at the moment， the female is the kite， already no longer is with the subjective consciousness， their bodies have been method of erosion， the consciousness of their trapped in the body of the plant fiber， poison depends on constant paralysis and enslaved.
I use wind bows to kill their bodies， make their weight new life consciousness， and temporarily stay in my dream space， it may be lost the body， but also obtained a health or call another kind of healthy life.
Adult， white male consciousness interrupted my thought， I don't know what is your sister， but the kite Dan is never so easy to solve， I think she may be with what inspire potential drugs， forced to live for a while Dan the toxicity of the kite， but once the drug efficacy of a drug， that she was......
I froze， no wonder kiddo don't tell me she is how to return a responsibility， mother also not easily because of her status in the!
Flung back staring at the kiddo， I see her face red at the moment， mom was frowning help she wiped the sweat on his forehead.
I attend to not top of white male， ran to the kiddo near， with a rush to catch the arm she poisoning， stomach suddenly a pain， the body inverted out and flop， it fell on the ground， mom legs sad look at me， you don't get close to our!
You listen to mama said， I and your elder sister in yuhua， from now on， we have three days of life， do you know what I have no food， the way and ambush assassin， this three days I will help you and your sister clears the ambush and obstacles on the road， if you're lucky and see if I can help you to find some food.
What: mom， are you crazy?
She handed me and one a kiddo.
This is yuhua powder (powder why call?
I was repeatedly asked mom and kiddo this is what medicine， tube much， old mama and kiddo who like to discuss good didn't tell me， didn't also in this matter.
This period of memory is how to think of it， I haven't find out， his legs a soft knelt on the ground...
Didn't even have not harmonious feeling， but now I yet became the audience， I hear the roar， the hands on the ground， looking at old mama and kiddo， vigorously has collapsed at the moment!
I saw the tears of the earth constantly dripping or nose， I see， mom and kiddo to sacrifice yourself for me and bear children for breakthrough and a chance to live.
How can they do this， the family even if you take the risk again difficult also to be together!
Vigorously， kiddo gentle voices calling me， I won't be able to accompany you poisoned， I consult with mom before good， though didn't know the man crazy body disease， is to meet us， but now， things may not arrange that.
Don't we go to the city now， you are not with mom said to big jiu dreams?
And mom in this three days I help you clear， we don't have to food and sleep now...
Small seven!
How strong consciousness suddenly when he come back?
Not stuck in a layer 3 dream space before the nightmares?
How do not arrived at this time， is going to find food， and mom and kiddo out for such a big thing， he came back also can't help you!
Grandma， I heard the voice of the bear children， seven did not respond my call in mind， but now I find I can't use consciousness to communicate and bear children...
Bear a child holding the gray dog walked over to me， she gave me a look deeply， then turned to mother said.
Grandma， I know where there is food， but we need to go to save， you and aunt will be fine， and we are not alone， we already have a team.
