But what had happened？
Some one had blundered。
Starting from her musing she gave meaning to words which she had held meaningless in her mind for a long stretch of time。“Some one had blundered”-Fixing her short-sighted eyes upon her husband，who was now bearing down upon her，she gazed steadily until his closeness revealed to her（the jingle mated itself in her head）that something had happened，some one had blundered。But she could not for the life of her think what。
He shivered；he quivered。All his vanity，all his satisfaction in his own splendour，riding fell as a thunderbolt，fierce as a hawk at the head of his men through the valley of death，had been shattered，destroyed。Stormed at by shot and shell，boldly we rode and well，flashed through the valley of death，volleyed and thundered-straight into Lily Briscoe and William Bankes。He quivered；he shivered。
Not for the world would she have spoken to him，realising，from the familiar signs，his eyes averted，and some curious gathering together of his person，as if he wrapped himself about and needed privacy into which to regain his equilibrium，that he was outraged and anguished。She stroked James's head；she transferred to him what she felt for her husband，and，as she watched him chalk yellow the white dress shirt of a gentleman in the Army and Navy Stores catalogue，thought what a delight it would be to her should he turn out a great artist；and why should he not？He had a splendid forehead。Then，looking up，as her husband passed her once more，she was relieved to find that the ruin was veiled；domesticity triumphed；custom crooned its soothing rhythm，so that when stopping deliberately，as his turn came round again，at the window he bent quizzically and whimsically to tickle James's bare calf with a sprig of something，she twitted him for having dispatched“that poor young man，”Charles Tansley。Tansley had had to go in and write his dissertation，he said。
“James will have to write HIS dissertation one of these days，”he added ironically，flicking his sprig。
Hating his father，James brushed away the tickling spray with which in a manner peculiar to him，compound of severity and humour，he teased his youngest son's bare leg。
She was trying to get these tiresome stockings finished to send to Sorley's little boy tomorrow，said Mrs。Ramsay。
There wasn't the slightest possible chance that they could go to the Lighthouse tomorrow，Mr。Ramsay snapped out irascibly。
How did he know？she asked。The wind often changed。
The extraordinary irrationality of her remark，the folly of women's minds enraged him。He had ridden through the valley of death，been shattered and shivered；and now，she flew in the face of facts，made his children hope what was utterly out of the question，in effect，told lies。He stamped his foot on the stone step。“Damn you，”he said。But what had she said？Simply that it might be fine tomorrow。So it might。
Not with the barometer falling and the wind due west。
To pursue truth with such astonishing lack of consideration for other people's feelings，to rend the thin veils of civilization so wantonly，so brutally，was to her so horrible an outrage of human decency that，without replying，dazed and blinded，she bent her head as if to let the pelt of jagged hail，the drench of dirty water，bespatter her unrebuked。There was nothing to be said。
He stood by her in silence。Very humbly，at length，he said that he would step over and ask the Coastguards if she liked。
There was nobody whom she reverenced as she reverenced him。
She was quite ready to take his word for it，she said。Only then they need not cut sandwiches-that was all。They came to her，naturally，since she was a woman，all day long with this and that；one wanting this，another that；the children were growing up；she often felt she was nothing but a sponge sopped full of human emotions。Then he said，Damn you。He said，It must rain。He said，It won't rain；and instantly a Heaven of security opened before her。There was nobody she reverenced more。She was not good enough to tie his shoe strings，she felt。
Already ashamed of that petulance，of that gesticulation of the hands when charging at the head of his troops，Mr。Ramsay rather sheepishly prodded his son's bare legs once more，and then，as if he had her leave for it，with a movement which oddly reminded his wife of the great sea lion at the Zoo tumbling backwards after swallowing his fish and walloping off so that the water in the tank washes from side to side，he dived into the evening air which，already thinner，was taking the substance from leaves and hedges but，as if in return，restoring to roses and pinks a lustre which they had not had by day。
“Some one had blundered，”he said again，striding off，up and down the terrace。
But how extraordinarily his note had changed！It was like the cuckoo；“in June he gets out of tune”；as if he were trying over，tentatively seeking，some phrase for a new mood，and having only this at hand，used it，cracked though it was。But it sounded ridiculous-“Some one had blundered”-said like that，almost as a question，without any conviction，melodiously。Mrs。Ramsay could not help smiling，and soon，sure enough，walking up and down，he hummed it，dropped it，fell silent。
He was safe，he was restored to his privacy。He stopped to light his pipe，looked once at his wife and son in the window，and as one raises one's eyes from a page in an express train and sees a farm，a tree，a cluster of cottages as an illustration，a confirmation of something on the printed page to which one returns，fortified，and satisfied，so without his distinguishing either his son or his wife，the sight of them fortified him and satisfied him and consecrated his effort to arrive at a perfectly clear understanding of the problem which now engaged the energies of his splendid mind。
It was a splendid mind。For if thought is like the keyboard of a piano，divided into so many notes，or like the alphabet is ranged in twenty-six letters all in order，then his splendid mind had one by one，firmly and accurately，until it had reached，say，the letter Q。He reached Q。Very few people in the whole of England ever reach Q。Here，stopping for one moment by the stone urn which held the geraniums，he saw，but now far，far away，like children picking up shells，divinely innocent and occupied with little trifles at their feet and somehow entirely defenceless against a doom which he perceived，his wife and son，together，in the window。They needed his protection；he gave it them。But after Q？What comes next？After Q there are a number of letters the last of which is scarcely visible to mortal eyes，but glimmers red in the distance。Z is only reached once by one man in a generation。Still，if he could reach R it would be something。Here at least was Q。He dug his heels in at Q。Q he was sure of。Q he could demonstrate。If Q then is Q-R-。Here he knocked his pipe out，with two or three resonant taps on the handle of the urn，and proceeded。“Then R……”He braced himself。He clenched himself。
Qualities that would have saved a ship's company exposed on a broiling sea with six biscuits and a flask of water-endurance and justice，foresight，devotion，skill，came to his help。R is then-what is R？
A shutter，like the leathern eyelid of a lizard，flickered over the intensity of his gaze and obscured the letter R。In that flash of darkness he heard people saying-he was a failure-that R was beyond him。He would never reach R。On to R，once more。R-
Qualities that in a desolate expedition across the icy solitudes of the Polar region would have made him the leader，the guide，the counsellor，whose temper，neither sanguine nor despondent，surveys with equanimity what is to be and faces it，came to his help again。R-
The lizard's eye flickered once more。The veins on his forehead bulged。The geranium in the urn became startlingly visible and，displayed among its leaves，he could see，without wishing it，that old，that obvious distinction between the two classes of men；on the one hand the steady goers of superhuman strength who，plodding and persevering，repeat the whole alphabet in order，twenty-six letters in all，from start to finish；on the other the gifted，the inspired who，miraculously，lump all the letters together in one flash-the way of genius。He had not genius；he laid no claim to that：but he had，or might have had，the power to repeat every letter of the alphabet from A to Z accurately in order。Meanwhile，he stuck at Q。On，then，on to R。
Feelings that would not have disgraced a leader who，now that the snow has begun to fall and the mountain top is covered in mist，knows that he must lay himself down and die before morning comes，stole upon him，paling the colour of his eyes，giving him，even in the two minutes of his turn on the terrace，the bleached look of withered old age。Yet he would not die lying down；he would find some crag of rock，and there，his eyes fixed on the storm，trying to the end to pierce the darkness，he would die standing。He would never reach R。
He stood stock-still，by the urn，with the geranium flowing over it。How many men in a thousand million，he asked himself，reach Z after all？Surely the leader of a forlorn hope may ask himself that，and answer，without treachery to the expedition behind him，“One perhaps。”One in a generation。Is he to be blamed then if he is not that one？provided he has toiled honestly，given to the best of his power，and till he has no more left to give？And his fame lasts how long？It is permissible even for a dying hero to think before he dies how men will speak of him hereafter。His fame lasts perhaps two thousand years。And what are two thousand years？（asked Mr。Ramsay ironically，staring at the hedge）。What，indeed，if you look from a mountain top down the long wastes of the ages？The very stone one kicks with one's boot will outlast Shakespeare。His own little light would shine，not very brightly，for a year or two，and would then be merged in some bigger light，and that in a bigger still。（He looked into the hedge，into the intricacy of the twigs。）Who then could blame the leader of that forlorn party which after all has climbed high enough to see the waste of the years and the perishing of the stars，if before death stiffens his limbs beyond the power of movement he does a little consciously raise his numbed fingers to his brow，and square his shoulders，so that when the search party comes they will find him dead at his post，the fine figure of a soldier？Mr。Ramsay squared his shoulders and stood very upright by the urn。
Who shall blame him，if，so standing for a moment he dwells upon fame，upon search parties，upon cairns raised by grateful followers over his bones？Finally，who shall blame the leader of the doomed expedition，if，having adventured to the uttermost，and used his strength wholly to the last ounce and fallen asleep not much caring if he wakes or not，he now perceives by some pricking in his toes that he lives，and does not on the whole object to live，but requires sympathy，and whisky，and some one to tell the story of his suffering to at once？Who shall blame him？Who will not secretly rejoice when the hero puts his armour off，and halts by the window and gazes at his wife and son，who，very distant at first，gradually come closer and closer，till lips and book and head are clearly before him，though still lovely and unfamiliar from the intensity of his isolation and the waste of ages and the perishing of the stars，and finally putting his pipe in his pocket and bending his magnificent head before her-who will blame him if he does homage to the beauty of the world？
